Period week rants.

Sigh. I very much enjoy Derry. I was lucky to have a very welcoming, and kind host family. But they are also rather chill, and did not give out a curfew despite the program leaders advice. I am also lucky in the sense of having my own room. After long days, having my Jordan time is crucial. Despite my good fortunes, I find myself quiet annoyed with the lack of Jordan time. I guess I have pictured myself self-expoloring, and being more independent. The group I am traveling with is very different than me. They enjoy doing group activities, and mostly spending money. Where I pictured this trip as a first time leaving the country and wanting to see the little things. Endless walks that involve beautiful scenery, but also self-talk. I could not of left the country in a more perfect time in my life (you know the point where it feels like everything is wrong, all the time). I promised myself to love myself in the year of 2015. To decide what things are important and when to let everything go. In short, a journey of self-discovery. I find it hard to find myself when I feel obligated to engage in frequent group activities in fear of upsetting the flow of the group. Maybe my journey involves balance. Despite my feelings, there is always something to learn. To end I want to say I have find an interest in women's studies! I am abroad studying peace and reconciliation, completely out of my comfort zone, whereas back in the states I study Biology. But in the midst of not necessarily enjoying all my classes, I can honestly say I cannot wait to start an internship that will involve women. And my host mom works for the women's center near our home and I will be making my first trip there this evening. Perhaps I will find happiness in assisting others. Maybe my Jordan time can be shared giving back. Side note again, I have contacted the Hospice. Please keep your fingers crossed as I am over here tying to absorb all I can. Signed, A first time traveler